A lot has happened. It's been a whirlwind. I defended someone I didn't know in court. I flew to manila and was overwhelmed by the kindness and generosity of its people. I started volunteering. I worked bloody hard, for what feels like the first time, for a boss that I respected.

There's a lot on my mind but let's get this one off first - I'm not great with things that don't make logical sense. I don't know how people do things that hurt others and flaunt it. Seems people like to call me sheltered; yeah yeah well, it feels more like a concept that will break my mind before I can understand it. I don't want to be around you, but I hope you and the people you've hurt can find some sort of peace in future. 

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There is so little time we have on earth, I can feel it passing with every breath. I bulldozed over a few fences and hurdles and stuff trying to make a 1% change, because I believe in compounding. I stand on the shoulders of the 1% changes made by women hundreds of years ago. And so I'm not discouraged by what little is within my sphere of influence now. 

But someone once told me that 'time is limitless'. I would like the chance to ask him about what he meant by that. 

This year was the first time since 2018 that I forgot April 4th. I'd like to remember still, please. Leave flowers on a nonexistent grave. But it's just that this was the first time since 2018.