that bitterness will eat you up, he said, man older than my father, man with hollows in his cheeks. 

I know. I can feel it burning like whisky down my throat. I can feel it etching itself, lines in my face. I can feel it eating me alive, sitting in the home of my heart and soul. 

I have to let it go, I have to endure. People who are cruel to other people, who are cruel to me. 

Why do I have to let it go? 

Dear God no. Will I ever be able to forgive? 

If the day comes when I have a chance to give it back to you, ten times over, let the fire rip through your soul, will I be big enough to let it go? 

Because right now, half-eaten, tears only half-run, grasping at old words in the core of my soul - there is nothing wrong with you - to keep me going 

Right now I would watch you burn. 

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Now tell me... what happens to people who obsess on revenge and hatred? 

You know that as well, don't you? 

Did you forget how to love yourself, that you would be willing to lose it all for someone you don't respect and don't care for? 

Did you lose that selfishness? 

Are you really going to go this route? 

Then tell me, girl. For how much longer can you keep holding out? 

Is that it? The test of life? How long can you stay yourself, believe in yourself, no matter what the world says and does? 

Then can't you go a little easier on me, sweetheart. Can't you see it's not easy? Do you want me down so badly? Can't you...please...go a little easier on me?