Unlike my colleagues, after this year I'm not going to continue working in the hospital. I'll be going somewhere entirely different. The brevity of my experience makes me feel... I suppose I treasure this more. I miss it already.
This is how it is with many things in my life. Because everything ends eventually, the more I value something, the more I miss it in the moment.
But it's ok. Remember that letting go of 'the fear of the end' and 'the hope that it will last longer' are the same thing. Remember that... this is just life, after all. You don't know how it will end. You don't know how long it will last. Hoping and fearing are just wasted effort. Just experience and be thankful.