I grew up through fire. A lot of people did. 

I am sorry I can be harsh. My inner voice is terrible and I have been living with it for a long time. Some times, when I hear people make excuses instead of face facts, I can get impatient. 

I know there are other ways to live but I am afraid if I don't stop being harsh to myself, I will end up like certain people who I never want to become. People who blame others for their lives, without making any effort to change it themselves. 

I'm afraid if I stop pushing, I'll become someone who loses control over her own life. As it is now, I take some measure of pride in seeing things clearly, and making plans for the future. 

I will have to learn to lower my expectations for others.