Sometimes out of nowhere it hits me again. I am no longer able to see or hear or speak to you again. My chest squeezes and it feels my heart must burst. I wonder how I ever forgot this reality. 

I understand grief is a common human experience. 

Each time, I temporarily forget this great loss. I continue living life. I just remember you every day when I see a car, a road. I simply miss you. 

It's been five years.