MOCC is coming. I'm dreading it for sure - the harsh training, the strangers, the bunking with another person, the terrible food.

If I ask myself what I can do to make it better, well
- if I was fit (oops, too late!)
- make some friends so there can be laughter amidst despair (this isn't something that I alone can do though)
- calling home and talking to my mom or dad when I'm upset.
- talking to boyfriend about random things..
- bring in something familiar/comforting, like coffee...or chocolate :)
- stretching and deep breaths, if I can find a place to do it in peace.
- appreciating moments of beauty when I find them. Sunlight filtering through trees. A vast night sky. The smell of earth after rain.
- moisturizing I guess. Maybe it sounds odd but feeling soft really makes me happy

I think that reality is harsh, and there are impossible situations that leave only horror and despair. I do not think MOCC is one of those. And so perhaps it's not so unreasonable to hope for friends to laugh with, family I can cry to, and moments of relief.

And so -- it will be fine. I will be fine.