This is how it goes: you go a little crazy, you get self-conscious and self-critical (or more so than usual).
You do things you never thought you'd do, and act like an idiot sometimes.
You get hurt and angry, then unbearably happy.
As long as I hold on to myself, it's worth it, I think.
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"It just makes me happy." That's when you know you're a goner.
But then again, not really.