Monday, April 21, 2014

if I had just kept my mouth shut and kept up my policy of absolute silence, the day would have been just fine and I would now be studying the chambers of the heart.

the irony is too much.

It used to be that when I closed my eyes to black and white the first word that came up was, Listen. 

Now, it is a question.

What do you want for yourself and What do you want from me? 
Or maybe, how far can I run? 

19 years looking at 15 years

this is more than I care to admit.

this is the reason why, when you tell me about your parental worries of my trip to israel and 'letting me go', I don't say anything. I don't even tell you not to worry, I'll be back.

It's my secret.